“All that is gold does not glitter, Not all those who wander are lost.” -J.R.R Tolkien, The Fellowship of The Ring I’m not lost! I’m standing right here, in the middle of a forest, looking up at the treetops and thinking silly thoughts. Thoughts like: What do you think the trees have seen in the... Continue Reading →
I Can’t Stop Should-ing All Over Myself
Let’s take a walk, shall we? Not through the forest, along a beach, or up a mountain. The trails we tread won’t be firm or formed by shifting tectonic plates. It won’t be lit by the sun or a street lap. It’s deep inside an ill-traversed cavern full of wonders and dangers. It goes deep... Continue Reading →
Listening To Better Angels
“The world is indeed full of peril, and in it there are many dark places; but still there is much that is fair, and though in all lands love is now mingled with grief, it sows perhaps the greater.” - J.R.R Tolkien (Lord of the Rings: The Fellowship of the Ring) It’s hard for me... Continue Reading →
Do You Love Your Scars?
Do I love my scars? Yes, most of the time I do, but maybe love is a strong word. I’m not enamoured with these lines on my skin. When I look at them, I don’t feel an intense euphoria and an unconditional affection. My heart doesn’t skip a beat, and my stomach doesn’t twist itself... Continue Reading →
But Still I Smile
“The robbed that smiles, steals something from the thief.” - William Shakespeare, Othello I have this weird…twitch? Is that the right word? Habit? Quirk? Compulsion? Whatever it is, it’s peculiar, and it freaks some people out. The worse the situation; the more I smile. The sadder I am; the harder I laugh. Jokes, sarcasm, witticism... Continue Reading →
I Can’t Adult Right Now!
I DON’T KNOW WHAT I’M DOING! Where did that come from? Is my caps lock is stuck again? Weird. Thought I got that fixed. My bad. Sorry for yelling. It's not my style but every once in a while it sorta just slips out. Kinda like…Nope let’s leave that one alone. So many way’s it... Continue Reading →
Chasing Normal
“If you’re always trying to be normal, you will never know how amazing you can be.” Maya Angelou Sometimes I feel like a mannequin in the window of some low rent shopping centre. This anthropomorphized doll with incredibly realistic features. People stop and stare. They squint and turn their heads to the side. They... Continue Reading →
What Does It Feel Like?
Mental illness is hard to understand if you’ve never struggled with it. It’s even harder to explain when you’re in the middle of the darkness. I’ve spent a lot of time trying to find a way to explain what it feels like to fight a mental illness. Friends, family, have asked but I haven’t been... Continue Reading →
How do You Say Goodbye?
What if there was a way to cure your disease? It’s a simple procedure. A minimally invasive surgery. There’s no financial burden and the risks are relatively low. Recovery time isn’t that long. You could be back to your normal routine in a couple of weeks. One procedure to cure an illness that’s been threatening... Continue Reading →
Things That Go Bump In The Night
“There's no shame in fear, my father told me, what matters is how we face it.” - George R.R. Martin, A Clash of Kings There’s a lot to be afraid of right now. World leaders are trying to start wars. An entire country is on fire. A virus is spreading faster than scientists can find... Continue Reading →